December 2, 2013
Last week was spent in a stupor of overeating and playing FFXIV and it was glorious. Needless to say, not much drawing was done. I scored a nice little 50% off set of Prismacolor Premier pencils though, and am ready to get back to this Frida’s skull drawing. I will finish it soon and let you see. Also, the frame for my Munsters portraits came in the mail. So I’ll be sharing a photo of that soon too.
So, last week in-between shoving my piehole full of delicious noms and power leveling, I managed to do a little thinking and research about the professional field of Illustration. I’m interested. I’ve always been interested… but along my way I allowed myself to be coerced, cajoled, and bamboozled into pursuing a career that wasn’t what I was going for inside my heart -Advertising. Drawing, making arts and crafts – that’s what I wanted to do – the same things I grew up doing. They are part of me, who I am.
In college I majored in an Illustration program. But it was not good, and that’s all I should say! The whole program actually disintegrated beneath me and was no longer offered. Everyone tried to talk me into joining the Graphic Design program and I vehemently said no. I had nothing against it, in fact it was quite interesting to me, but I knew in my heart of hearts that I wanted to keep doing what I was doing – flailing around being myself, clunky and unencumbered – making art for art’s sake.
I find myself now wondering what happened? How’d I get so off-track? But I have to remind myself that I’m happy and honored to have all the experience I have now. It adds to who I am and what I can accomplish. What I’ve been through and where I’ve worked only complements my abilities, focus, and determination in this moment now. It is difficult for me to not imagine what I might be doing now if I hadn’t given my hopes and dreams up so easily for other people’s hopes and dreams for me. But I believe I can play catch-up now.
So today, with new pencils and a rejuvenated attitude I’m going to get back to the drawing board! I’m just going to do my best and try to have some fun ~my beloved Aaron taught me that and I’ll never forget the good advice.
*hugs* Here’s to hoping you are well and happy.